I used to be so good at physical intimacy. And pushing boundaries with how comfortable can I make this person feel to let me be intimate? Certainly with men. How could a man decline a girl like me? I took it from everyone and relished in hearing how I won even the most introverted over in the end.

But it was fine. It was me.

Now I find myself completely unsure and nervous. I know I used to do this with ease. Now I’m wondering how do I get back to that person the made people feel comfortable?

That’s a Pisces super power… Making people feel comfortable… And seen.

It’s Pisces season… And all the feelings of my moon are flooding me. I credit most of my best traits to this placement. The natural empathy, the joy, the dreamy ideals, the artistic and inspiring. The easy laughing… The kindness.

The traits that soften out the harsher edges of my chart.

And as I watch people celebrating their favorites, I notice the qualities that they share and fondly remember my Pisces.

He wasn’t even mine. I wasn’t one of his best friends, I was never a girl friend. Only once we considered each other for a couple weeks, he squeezed me so tight the whole night.

But by then we had known each other too long. Long enough to know we were both trainwrecks. Long enough to know each other’s flaws.

And, at least on my end, We always felt so similar.

I want to get back to the person that loved and wasn’t scared to love. But she feels so foriegn to me now. Now I’m old and disappointed in everyone.

That’s probably why I’m so nervous. I haven’t been disappointed yet.

We’re such great tragedies in our hearts.

I miss you.

I know you would want me to pursue Love.

I’m trying Micah.